Suffocate


I felt cold, my body was stiff and my back ached. I was trying to open my eyes but nothing was happening. As I tried forcing them to open a dense colour of red blurred all the images. My eyelids seemed to be pilling of but at that moment I didn'd care if they did.

I was struggling so hard but all my efforts were fruitless. I couldn't give up but I knew I had been a cause of all this pain. With endless pressure from everyone and a broken heart. I had decided to come hear and settle things for good.

I was beginning to choke and I felt dizzy. I flung my fists vigourusly in all directions but I could feel nothing. I was bruising myself and fighting against nothing. The picture was becoming darker and the pain unbearable. I yelled out but that got more water down my throat. I felt relief and then I knew it was done. Someone was going to find my body floating underneath the thin ice.

I wouldn't say I never lived my life to the fullest but I had no one and nothing to lean on. I had drowned myself in self pity for too long it was time I drowned myself in something different. No one to stop me and nothing to hold me back. I had everything before me I just never appriciated it and my selfishness had healed no wounds helped no one. I had thought of these thing even as I took my last breath I felt a feeling of guilt but dismissed it immediatly. Closing my ears from that small voice,, but there was no turning back and my motives shall always remain a mystery.

Becks

More Resources

Unable to open RSS Feed $XMLfilename with error HTTP ERROR: 404, exiting

More Depression Information:

Related Articles

A Look at the Different Depression and Anxiety Medications
While it may be easy to recite the various brand names and generalize their benefits enough to know they put us (or are supposed to put us) in a better mood, for lack of a better term, the drugs themselves can all be categorized individually, each working in a slightly different way.The following is a list and very brief description, by category, of depression and anxiety medications currently prescribed by physicians.
Quick Steps To Improve Your Mood
Looking to improve your mood?Edward W. Smith, motivational speaker, author and TV show host, who specializes in quick tips on how to move your life ahead even faster, offers the following advice.
The Cost of Giving Up
I'm sure at times of deep crisis many of you have considered thoughts of "giving up". What is the cost to you of entertaining such thoughts? Well as one client with a progressively deteriorating illness I was working with stated "it's like having one foot out the back door".
Depression is Underdiagnosed in College Students
Everyone feels down or blue once in awhile. Especially during difficult times, it's normal to feel sad or discouraged.
Depression is the Number One Cause of Disability in the United States
According to the World Health Organization, 4 of the 10 leading causes of disability in the United States and other developed countries are mental disorders, including major depression, bipolar disorder, and schizophrenia. Approximately 23% of American adults each year have a diagnosable mental disorder and as many as 5.
Get Rid Of Depression Once And For All
Depression is something that will occur in many people'slives, for various reasons. But the "normal" occurrence ofa plunge in mood due to stressful events in your life,usually doesn't last very long, before a person's naturalresilience responds to the environment of friends andfamily.
Do You Think You Have Depression?
Do you have days where nothing can make you happy? You are not alone. I ignored my depressive thoughts about life for years.
How to Uncover the Reason You Cant Sleep Tonight
If you are like me ..
Tuning the Music Therapist
Music so strongly evokes emotional responses that it is being more frequently employed in the context of psychotherapy as a powerful healing modality. As a novice in this field I inquired at a recent conference on music therapy as to how this tool effects healing in clients with emotional disorders.
Can You Overcome Depression?
There are many things that happen within the body when depression occurs. It is not only a feeling, but a disease that is often caused by an imbalance of chemicals within the brain.
Anxiety and Depression Treatment - 5 Tips for Beating Depression
Everyone has days when they are down, worn out and just notfeeling all that happy.That's OK, you need to have days like this, otherwise how wouldyou know when you are happy.
Are the Benefits Worth the Costs?
Schizophrenia suffers around the world have benefitted greatly with the discoveries of modern medicine. Certain medications have been found to regulate and balance brain chemistry giving an individual suffering from schizophrenia a seemingly normal life.
ADHD and Depression -- More Common Than Thought
"Thanks for Noticin' Me" says Eeyore. He walks slowly.
Acidity Depresses Thyriod Function
THE RISKAccumulation of acids in your body, due to insufficient digestion of food, food allergies and consumption of acid-forming substances, can depress thyroid function. Acid-related causes of hypothyroidism also include exposure to heavy metals and toxic chemicals in the water supply and in highly processed food.
Fighting Depression by Restoring Your Routines
When we have depression, one of the things we drop from our lives is a routine. Most humans need routine as it adds structure to our lives.
Is it ADHD or is it Depression?
During the assessment process it is of great importance for the physician or clinician to consider other possible causes of inattention, impulsivity, or hyperactivity in your child, or teen, or yourself. In fact, this is probably the most important element of a good assessment.
Being A Victim Is Always A Choice
Do you blame your past, your family, your partner, your job, your circumstances or a host of other things for your unfortunate place in life. If so then, by definition, you are choosing to identify yourself as a victim.
Know the Signs of Depression and Improve Your Life
Typical signs of depression actually show a change in the way a person has come to think about himself."I just can't get myself to do any work around the house.
Biological Psychiatry Confirms of Efficacy and Safety of VNS Therapy for Depression
The September 1, 2005 issue of Biological Psychiatry confirmed the efficacy and safety of vagus nerve stimulation for chronic or recurrent treatment-resistant depression. The U.
How to Put an End to Depression
Depression can have many, many faces. If you are not aware of your feelings and emotions on a daily basis then it can creep up on you and cause misery in your life when you least expect it.